back in the groove and running on

alright just shook off that jet lag finally catching up with old mates saw the dentist too what a full day running around like i had no time left so much to do so little time two weeks doesn't seem enough and so much more to do even stopped in the new H&M that just opened up in sf what a mad house what a mess what a let down so much clothes and nothing to wear prefer the european ones much more the days are hot and unsual for this time of year must be lucky i guess as long as the weather is good i don't care will try to while away the time until i go back to sydney i hope it's getting warmer down there as it is warmer here than it was there and it's supposed to be winter here what's up with that so many shoppers like ants running along the sidewalks dodging and sprinting along don't hit me with your overflowing shopping bag hey watch out keep the economy humming along it's overwhelming how did i survive past holiday seasons here like the lazy days of summer where the boys are out in all their glory with their boyfriends in tow and their little dogs too i think it was a dog and not a large rat everyone looking perfect and gym toned and tanned so fahionable in their sunday best but not on their way to church the sky clear and blue above only a few strands of wispy clouds high above the twin peaks tower and over the san francisco skyline static in the baby blue background like cotton candy caught in the branches and this day will live in my memory of why i am in love with san francisco

Procrastination

verb. [intrans.] delay or postpone action; put off doing something.

ORIGIN Late 16th cent.: from Latin procrastinat- 'deferred until tomorrow,' from the verb procrastinare, from pro- 'forward' + crastinus 'belonging to tomorrow' (from cras 'tomorrow').

i don't know why i do it i guess i do it now and again i suppose you do it too still no consolation

Home and Dry

Travelling always gives me excitement and a little trepidation. Excitement to being going somewhere and trepidation because I hate flying.

It's an odd feeling to be flying "home" when I feel like I am making a "home" in Sydney as well. I guess I am only going back to tie up loose ends. I am already getting the butterflies in my stomach feeling about sleeping at my place in SF. I wasn't prepared to be having these feelings. I am not sure what I am nervous about, really. I am glad to be going back to SF, though it'll be a short trip. All my old haunts, I can't wait to see what's happened.

there's a plane at JFK
to fly you back from far away
all those dark and frantic
transatlantic miles

oh tonight
I miss you
oh tonight
I wish you
could be here with me
but I won't see you
'til you've made it back again

home and dry
home and dry

lyric by pet shop boys

When it rains, it pours...

You never know where life will take you. Look at me, I am half way around the world from where I grew up. Back in 2000 if you told me that I'd be living in Australia in 2005, I wouldn't have believed you. I guess this is the fate for Aquarians? Constantly on the move, looking out for the next adventure? Sometimes, I hope it isn't so. That, what is destined for me isn't written in the stars or foreseen by the fortune tellers. At other times, I just want the quiet life. Me, an orchard, some chickens, and a veggie patch. (It could happen!) Really, I am trying to decide what I want to be when I grow up. I want to settle down, but then if I settle down, will I be happy? If anyone out there has some thoughts on this, please let me know. I would love to hear how you've dealt with the pull of two different directions in life.

I have also been back to the gym on a regular basis again. Feelin great! I should have discovered this fact back in my twenties. Takes all the stress out of school and life in general. That and a beer with good mates helps too. Har har. I'd never thought I would come around to appreciate beer. Come on, beer! What happened to me?! Who are you and what have you done with me?

General observations: there is pleasure in giving pleasure to others. I hope everyone has discovered this fact by now in their life. If you haven't, give it a try. I must admit, though, I knew some aspect of this in my youth, but it wasn't until this year, I think, that this philosophy really made more sense.

Have you ever noticed that when your life is pretty normal, almost routine, nothing happens. But as soon as one catastrophe occurs, all the rest of the shit just hits the fan. What's up with that?! Why couldn't the shitty things in life just come around when your life's more calm and you can have time to deal with it. No! It's like they line up and put out the call when one thing happens-they all coming rushing in. And you can't swat at them fast enough. They's a comin' and it's all you can do to hold on for dear life.

I hope the rest of you reading this out there, that this week has been more peaceful for you!

Melbourne Cup Day!

Today, 1st Nov, is Melbourne Cup Day. Well, it's just a horse race in Melbourne, but the whole country celebrates. All of Victoria (the state Melbourne is in) even has it as a holiday off. The rest of the country just stops working at around 2PM to watch it on tellie (TV).

So, the winning horse is Makybe Diva, again. Three years in a row. I think it made history or something. Everyone here is wild about it.

Random observation: I picked up a package of Wrigley's Juicy Fruit at the shop today. To my surprise the gum are in pellets instead of sticks. The packaging is the same as in the states, long and narrow, but when I unwrapped it expecting to pull out a stick of gum, out popped a piece of "Chiclets" shaped gum.